I wanted to get a quick entry in before March was over, because I almost missed a whole month.
Unfortunately, today was a really hard day, and I can't find much to write.
Glen and his mom and I went to a funeral of a former next-door-neighbor, a kid that Glen had grown up with. It was only the second time I had met the family, but I felt like I knew them because of all the stories I had heard about the years they spent as neighbors.
We were talking a little bit about the wedding and the mom turned to me and said, "You know, you're a really really lucky girl to have him."
That's something that I know with all my heart, but no one had ever said to me before. Glen's family wouldn't brag about him like that, and none of our friends are going to talk like that. But she obviously loves Glen like a son and is so proud of him.
A we prepare for our wedding, one of the most wonderful parts has been seeing more and more clearly how many people we have in our lives that love us. People that we thought might not be interested in coming all the way to Philadelphia are so excited to just be with us that day. We are going to be surrounded by so much love as we say our vows.
But finding this deep connection today made my own grief for the loss of Brian sharper. His mom sees me as entering her own family, and that family is really suffering right now. And a little bit more than before, I can see what Glen and Kathee are going through with his death.
This is now the seventh person we've mourned since we got engaged. I guess the more people you love the more loss you eventually have to feel. The love is worth it though.
Monday, March 31, 2008
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